Sunday, August 16, 2009
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
When i was driving home from dinner today, I realized that driving by myself at night is actually a really relaxing activity. Relaxing and scary. It never occurred to me, i guess, its because I hardly drive. Even when i do get a chance to drive, most of the time, I have someone beside me or it's a really short distance. The silence and the gentle breeze blowing into your face gives a really peaceful and relaxing feel. This silence isn't a "I'm so bored" kind of silence, it's more like a tranquil kind of silence. It's a silence that just gives me a sense of content and peace. Its the kind of silence that gives me a chance to think and reflect. Maybe i should do it more often even though it may be an expensive thing to do.
I mentioned earlier that driving is relaxing and scary. When i say scary, i don't mean I'm afraid of the silence or anything. I mean I'm scared for my life and for others who are on the road because sometimes i am so deep in thought that i zone out and don't pay attention to the road. It isn't as bad as I make it sound, I don't completely disappear into sunny's magical land, it's not like autistic or anything. (Plus, I'm pretty sure it happens to everyone who drives.) Its just that its sort of a distraction to my driving. I'm not very good at multitasking and thinking too much about other things and driving at the same time isn't exactly the best combo unless you're looking for injury/death. I never really understood how people can drive and eat at the same time, especially if it's not finger food. If it's a cookie or something small, then, sure, i understand, i can do it too. But I've seen people eating Mcflurries, sushi and even noodles! Noodles in soup! WITH chopsticks?! What the heck, it's like a accident pending to happen!
On a completely different note, it's really weird how i just posted about posting and here i am posting again, for the fourth time today.
I mentioned earlier that driving is relaxing and scary. When i say scary, i don't mean I'm afraid of the silence or anything. I mean I'm scared for my life and for others who are on the road because sometimes i am so deep in thought that i zone out and don't pay attention to the road. It isn't as bad as I make it sound, I don't completely disappear into sunny's magical land, it's not like autistic or anything. (Plus, I'm pretty sure it happens to everyone who drives.) Its just that its sort of a distraction to my driving. I'm not very good at multitasking and thinking too much about other things and driving at the same time isn't exactly the best combo unless you're looking for injury/death. I never really understood how people can drive and eat at the same time, especially if it's not finger food. If it's a cookie or something small, then, sure, i understand, i can do it too. But I've seen people eating Mcflurries, sushi and even noodles! Noodles in soup! WITH chopsticks?! What the heck, it's like a accident pending to happen!
On a completely different note, it's really weird how i just posted about posting and here i am posting again, for the fourth time today.
Why must there always be a title?
Partially why I dread blogging is that it takes forever for me to write something. I’m not much of a writer and definitely not a person who likes to read (proofread). I never realized how time consuming writing is until I started writing posts. I don’t know how many times I have already mentioned this but I am a HUGE procrastinator and when I need to write a paper or something for school or whatever else, I usually do it last minute so it’s super rushed. Procrastination is only part of it, the other thing is that I hate doing things in parts. For example, If I’m in “the zone” of writing, then I have to continue writing until I finish. I hate writing separately because I lose track of where I am and lose a lot of ideas. This doesn’t only apply to writing; it applies to a lot of things such as reading or watching a movie. I pet peeve I guess? It’s partially why I don’t really like reading because I can’t stand to put down the book if I’m into it. And it takes me a while to get back “into” it when I pick it up next time because I probably forgot some details.
Another reason I don’t like blogging is because my mind is a whirlpool of a mess and I can’t get my ideas and thoughts straight. I tend to get sidetracked a lot which makes the post even longer then it should have been. A prime example of what I mean by I get sidetracked a lot is this post itself. I decided to write this little post in the middle of typing the post below this. You can tell I get sidetracked a lot by counting the number of times I’ve used the word anyway!
It’s kind of ironic how I’m blogging about why I hate blogging so much. Oh well. I guess it’s better than writing this all out on paper.
Another reason I don’t like blogging is because my mind is a whirlpool of a mess and I can’t get my ideas and thoughts straight. I tend to get sidetracked a lot which makes the post even longer then it should have been. A prime example of what I mean by I get sidetracked a lot is this post itself. I decided to write this little post in the middle of typing the post below this. You can tell I get sidetracked a lot by counting the number of times I’ve used the word anyway!
It’s kind of ironic how I’m blogging about why I hate blogging so much. Oh well. I guess it’s better than writing this all out on paper.
Summer checkup
It's been a while since I last made a post and I've been meaning to do one since forever but just never got around to doing it. In fact, I actually have half a post typed up about the San Francisco trip that I typed up during the car ride back but i never got around to finishing it. I guess it won't ever be finished since i deleted it already.
In a nutshell, that post was me rambling about my dis-satisfactions of San Francisco and how even though I complain that Vancouver may be boring at times, it seems like heaven compared to down there. My main problem with San fran is the horrible weather and the super congested-ness of that city. The micro-climate there just drives you insane, or at least it did to me. The temperature fluctuates like a pregnant lady's mood! Holy smokes, it can be 10 degrees and suddenly elevate to 30 something degrees. Not to mention the climate is different from city to city, it can be freezing cold and foggy in Daly city and super hot in Berkeley. That's not even the worst of it. In the 5 days that we spent in San Fran, we couldn't see the Golden Gate bridge even though we drove passed it and on it several times. There was this perpetual fog that hovered over the city which covered essentially everything so that you couldn't ever see a thing if you went on top of a mountain. Foggy weather is one of my most hated weather type because i like to see things. As stupid as it may sound, seeing things is really important to me. I can't imagine what it would be like if I was blind. I don't raelly know how to explain it, but my vision is really important to me.
Anyway, back to the real intent of this post.
Even though it sort of feels like it just started, which it technically did since i did have summer school, summer is quickly coming to an end. To be truly honest, the idea of it ending kind of scares me, firstly because it seems like it just started, like i said before and that i haven't done much. Secondly, the end of summer means the start of school. Throughout the many years of schooling, I never really dreaded school to start. I might have not wanted my summer to end, but I never didn't want school to start. I liked school. I mean, i wasn't a keener in school or anything nor did I get top marks but school was never really a burden for me. It all changed last year though. In the beginning of the year, school was pretty cool and such, new school, new environment, new friends, pretty awesome. But, I'm not really sure why myself, but i lost all motivation for school not long after it started. Grades were definitely not up to asian standards and seeing those grades isn't exactly very motivating either. Anyway, it's going to be much better this year because i have a clear cut goal for myself academically unlike last year. Back to the checkup. Here's the list of goals i very loosely set for myself, which shouldn't have been the case...
Well, summer hasn't exactly ended yet so i'm pretty confident that i can still accomplish the first one. This time around, i'll be more strict on myself in terms of accomplishing these goals lol. 5 more books seem kind of impractical now that i only have 3?4? more weeks left so i'll be really happy if i finish dancing with a ghost and hp 7 AND possibly another one i have yet to find.Even tough i haven't seem some of them in person, i still am emailing and what not, but i can definately work harder towards that. Lets just say i passed the course haha definately need to work on that one more (for the next school year). I am getting better at that, trying to read/watch the news more often. Well, seeing that i never used to do it, it's been good. As for a summer job, maybe i should just look for one for the coming school year haha.
Speaking of goals, when i was chatting with a friend today, he reminded me that not only should i set goals for academics and in general, it's also really important that i do set goals for myself spiritually. It's weird how i never even thought about it so i guess it wasn't really a reminder, but he told me. I haven't exactly decided on a goal(s)yet but i do have something in mind. I'll make a post when i decide on one and hope you guys can keep me accountable :P (I honestly have no idea who even reads this thing other than the 3 followers)If you didn't catch that, i mean leave a comment!
In a nutshell, that post was me rambling about my dis-satisfactions of San Francisco and how even though I complain that Vancouver may be boring at times, it seems like heaven compared to down there. My main problem with San fran is the horrible weather and the super congested-ness of that city. The micro-climate there just drives you insane, or at least it did to me. The temperature fluctuates like a pregnant lady's mood! Holy smokes, it can be 10 degrees and suddenly elevate to 30 something degrees. Not to mention the climate is different from city to city, it can be freezing cold and foggy in Daly city and super hot in Berkeley. That's not even the worst of it. In the 5 days that we spent in San Fran, we couldn't see the Golden Gate bridge even though we drove passed it and on it several times. There was this perpetual fog that hovered over the city which covered essentially everything so that you couldn't ever see a thing if you went on top of a mountain. Foggy weather is one of my most hated weather type because i like to see things. As stupid as it may sound, seeing things is really important to me. I can't imagine what it would be like if I was blind. I don't raelly know how to explain it, but my vision is really important to me.
Anyway, back to the real intent of this post.
Even though it sort of feels like it just started, which it technically did since i did have summer school, summer is quickly coming to an end. To be truly honest, the idea of it ending kind of scares me, firstly because it seems like it just started, like i said before and that i haven't done much. Secondly, the end of summer means the start of school. Throughout the many years of schooling, I never really dreaded school to start. I might have not wanted my summer to end, but I never didn't want school to start. I liked school. I mean, i wasn't a keener in school or anything nor did I get top marks but school was never really a burden for me. It all changed last year though. In the beginning of the year, school was pretty cool and such, new school, new environment, new friends, pretty awesome. But, I'm not really sure why myself, but i lost all motivation for school not long after it started. Grades were definitely not up to asian standards and seeing those grades isn't exactly very motivating either. Anyway, it's going to be much better this year because i have a clear cut goal for myself academically unlike last year. Back to the checkup. Here's the list of goals i very loosely set for myself, which shouldn't have been the case...
- finish dancing with a ghost lol
- hopefully find and read at least 5 more books (most of you know reading isn't a big hobby of mine but i'm trying!)
- not lose contact with some of the people i haven't seen in a long time
- pass my summer school course with at least a "B" (my inner asian is telling me to go for the "A" though)
- stay in tune with the news and not tune out the world
- and find a freaking job!
Well, summer hasn't exactly ended yet so i'm pretty confident that i can still accomplish the first one. This time around, i'll be more strict on myself in terms of accomplishing these goals lol. 5 more books seem kind of impractical now that i only have 3?4? more weeks left so i'll be really happy if i finish dancing with a ghost and hp 7 AND possibly another one i have yet to find.Even tough i haven't seem some of them in person, i still am emailing and what not, but i can definately work harder towards that. Lets just say i passed the course haha definately need to work on that one more (for the next school year). I am getting better at that, trying to read/watch the news more often. Well, seeing that i never used to do it, it's been good. As for a summer job, maybe i should just look for one for the coming school year haha.
edit: I forgot to talk about the guitar-ing one. Through my much wasted time, i've finally learnt how to play the guitar sort of, still lots of things to learn about but i'm happy with the progress. As for the bass, i still haven't gotten my hands on it yet haha still have a few weeks left so we'll see.
Speaking of goals, when i was chatting with a friend today, he reminded me that not only should i set goals for academics and in general, it's also really important that i do set goals for myself spiritually. It's weird how i never even thought about it so i guess it wasn't really a reminder, but he told me. I haven't exactly decided on a goal(s)yet but i do have something in mind. I'll make a post when i decide on one and hope you guys can keep me accountable :P (I honestly have no idea who even reads this thing other than the 3 followers)If you didn't catch that, i mean leave a comment!
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