What do you do when someone is too stubborn and stupid to see what he/she is getting him/herself into and he/she won't listen to anyone around him/her?! It's so difficult living with these kind of people around you. You want to help, you really do but what can you do if every time you try you get pulverized to the pulp by a tsunami of emotions. The only thing left to do is just to try not to generate your own tsunami of vengeance and watch as those people keep crashing. Crashing, full speed ahead. Wall after wall after wall until they break. Are we suppose to throw ourselves in front of them to try and soften the impact?
Writing out your negative emotions does get it off your chest. But, it also gets you into a slump, a cycle of negativity. Writing positive thoughts just masks your true emotions. Not write at all and the negativity just creeps into you and eventually consume you until you turn out "emo" as they say.
Monday, October 26, 2009
Monday, October 12, 2009
Week of Redemption
I just found out my mark for the first midterm I did 2 weeks ago. I was so sure i pretty much aced it because it was sooooo easy. It turns out that i did pretty bad on it. This sucks because firstly, this is suppose to be an easy course. Secondly, I was so confident about a good mark on that exam. If i did so poorly on the exam i was confident in, then how will the one i think i did horribly in turn out? I can't even bare to imagine. I guess last minute cramming doesn't work even for easy courses. Oh how i miss easy marks in highschool.
Anyway, this week is the least busiest week this month. No midterms this week, AND i don't have work. But, on the flip side, I actually have to stay till 8:50 for my night class on Thursday because I have to participate in a presentation. (I'm part of the peanut gallery in a debate ==") Back to the main point. I have tons of time (sort of, time flies by for some reason and i'm not exactly having the time of my life here...) to catch up on my readings and studying. THe most important course I'm taking is social work 200 and that's the class I'm most behind in, partially because i kind of dislike and I would go as far to say hate it! It's not what i thought at all! We have to know so many different policies for this and that. The whole course is revolved around politics, which I hate! I'm dreading the midterm, which is next week becuase as i said earlier, I hate the course, and I've read 3 pages out of the 50 million pages haha :S.
In terms of spiritually, I still have a lot to catch up on. I used to wake up a bit earlier before school to do my devotions because my schedule this year is pretty awesome. Class starts at 11 every single day except every other wed, so i can wake up at 8:30, do devotions and have time to pack and eat breakfast before I head out for school. If i drive, it's even better, but i usually get the car once or twice a week only. Back on topic....ever since midterms started, my sleeping pattern has changed dramatically and I've lost all motivation to wake up "early." So this week, I must redeem myself, set myself straight and form a better sleeping pattern so I can get up early to do devos before school and so that I can be more efficient with my energy rather than trudging to and from school.
Anyway, this week is the least busiest week this month. No midterms this week, AND i don't have work. But, on the flip side, I actually have to stay till 8:50 for my night class on Thursday because I have to participate in a presentation. (I'm part of the peanut gallery in a debate ==") Back to the main point. I have tons of time (sort of, time flies by for some reason and i'm not exactly having the time of my life here...) to catch up on my readings and studying. THe most important course I'm taking is social work 200 and that's the class I'm most behind in, partially because i kind of dislike and I would go as far to say hate it! It's not what i thought at all! We have to know so many different policies for this and that. The whole course is revolved around politics, which I hate! I'm dreading the midterm, which is next week becuase as i said earlier, I hate the course, and I've read 3 pages out of the 50 million pages haha :S.
In terms of spiritually, I still have a lot to catch up on. I used to wake up a bit earlier before school to do my devotions because my schedule this year is pretty awesome. Class starts at 11 every single day except every other wed, so i can wake up at 8:30, do devotions and have time to pack and eat breakfast before I head out for school. If i drive, it's even better, but i usually get the car once or twice a week only. Back on topic....ever since midterms started, my sleeping pattern has changed dramatically and I've lost all motivation to wake up "early." So this week, I must redeem myself, set myself straight and form a better sleeping pattern so I can get up early to do devos before school and so that I can be more efficient with my energy rather than trudging to and from school.
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